Over the past couple weeks we had heard so many stories that this is just a precautionary and had to be done. It seemed as if people were coming out of the woodwork with a story like ours( The Dr. saw an abnormality but it turned out to be nothing) I too was praying this would be the case but in the back of my mind I kept telling myself this still a good possibility of not having a healthy baby. We'll anyway we got there did a lot of paperwork then we talked with a Genetics counselor who verified we would have an ultrasound done to measure the back of the baby's neck to see if there were any abnormalities. We went back to the waiting room and waited another 30min until we were called in to do our ultrasound. The ultrasound tech pulled up the monitor and showed us our baby. From what we could tell things looked normal but were are definitely not skilled in this area. Our baby moved around so much. It would throw its hands up and kick its legs. I was so happy to see our little one moving around. When I saw it moving its hands around I thought Its going to be a talker like me , moving its hands around and all. At one point the baby was sucking its thumb.
Andy and I thought at that point things were going well. The ultrasound tech said the Dr. would be in shortly to discuss the ultrasound with us. We we waited for another 20 min for the Dr, then another nurse came in and took us to the counseling room to meet with the Dr. I started to panic a bit while Andy seemed to think it was good news the Dr. dint have to come in to the ultrasound.I was just being a worry wort.
The Dr. sat down and and I knew something was wrong. He asked why we have been referred to him. I explained my OBGYN thought the thickness of the neck was thicker than normal. He said at this point that wasn't a concern. He did say our baby had what was called an " Omphalocele". He wrote the name out for us then showed us a picture. The baby's bowels were in the umbilical cord. He explained the risk and gave us the choice of going on with the pregnancy. At that point my mind went blank and I honestly didn't process anything else he said. All I could think is my baby isn't going to live.This man just gave us an option of eliminating our baby. I was so confused I just saw it moving around and looking like a baby. He did explain that with this condition there could be other abnormalities involved : heart problems or other chromosome disorders such as Downs or a type of Downs that the baby couldn't survive out of my stomach. I was still shocked and couldn't believe that was the 2nd thing our of his mouth. He did finally get to the fact some babies are perfectly healthy and just have to have surgery when born. He gave us the option of doing the amiocities to determine if our baby had any other abnormalities. Andy and I thought it would be best to wait so we could give the baby time to grow and truly see what was going on. I was only 12 weeks and the baby would change over these next couple weeks. We made our next appontment 6 weeks away. Andy was amazing. He asked questions when I couldn't .If I would have opened my mouth I probably would have cried uncontrollably. The doctor would ask if I had any questions and I would just shake my head. As soon as the doctor left I started crying. I didn't know what to think. We came for one thing and left with something totally different. I didn't know which one was worse. I was quiet all the way home. I got home and just laid down. I was exhausted.
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